whats up dan hahah

dear world... (lol) Rohan aka, rowan from the internet just actually admitted he loved me on msn.

no one knows you like i do, nobody can know your heart like i do.. nobody can testify to all that you've been through but i will. paul simon -  songs from the capeman

now and then i feel the weight of the world, clogging every decent thing that ive got going for me, so tonight i spill my guts on this song, cause i know some other people have gotta feel like me tonight.

this blog is about shit im doing, please check out phantoms (www.myspace.com/phantomshc) i have alot of hope for this band, its going to be raw both lyrically and musically, i am actually siked on the way things are shaping up, im also doing a band with rex banner dudes, pop punkish kinda stuff, it should be a whole lot of fun either way i want to be on tour, working is for suckers.

my band, played its last show last friday, we were expecting a fun show, but were blown away by the turnout and response, shows like this are what makes me happy that i am involved with one of the best hardcore scenes in australia, so happy to share the show with such good friends (relentless & hand of mercy) shows like this dont happen often, so for everyone who reads this who attended or supported the band over the years, thank you very much !

Im all over the shop today, i hate being lied too, especially when  what i was being told was exactly what i wanted to hear, i hope inside you feel more empty than me, cause  you deserve that. Im going to watch deadwood, than play some fifa 09 

weekend ruled, i played a show again my shins hurt, i am talking to a girl i care for dearly and i am siked about it, i bought new shoes, i saw antagonist, before the throne are super heavy, that is all really.

so when i was in highschool, i thought by the time i was 21 id have my life sorted out, a career, a solid group of friends and a routine that i enjoyed. So as of late i have got these things, but i feel my life is far from being sorted out, and after watching several movies of late i have realised i dont want to settle for second best, what good is life if it is wasted away doing something you despise, what good is money if your unhappy with how your earning it.

so this time of the year always gets me down, it use to be the happiest time of year for me, but as you get older, the importance of christmas just seems to slip away, and to add to it im a boxing day baby, besides watching the cricket my birthday is one big borefest im hoping to change it this year, but hey i probably wont.. it sucks growing older, growing distant from my childhood fuck i had some fun, anyways this weekend, i played golf watched dvds with emma,  went to parramatta and bought left for dead (holyfuck) , and saw madagascar which was ok, i am starting to hate ben stiller fuck he is annoying, this week me chris and rowan are writing, anyways have a merry christmas and be safe xox

I want to find a hidden world so badly....

Check out this cd, holy shit so amazing, lately all thats i have been listening to is  

Rowan taylor, legend or desmond, you decide haha, i reckon the guy is great but is stupid as fuck. haha

  so sick of work ahh, ill update this one day soon i promise.

days have gone by, and it feels like im rotting, under spotlights my pulse is pounding, disgust is flowing through these veins, hearts telling me to put on a brave face,  minds disagreeing saying all kinds of shit, kill destroy love or live in fear, hide away from everything amongst the shadows become a phantom, amongst the shadows become a phantom, its me against the world.