blog will get interesting soon, tour stories, photos. All i did today was  sort some news out for BGO and packed for tour i always get nervous about going away and i always think the worst,  hopefully things go well and ill come home safely :) i am going to go charge my cameras goodbye

I fear being alone.

I am siked, going on tour with 50 lions leaving thursday and driving to adelaide, i am a little nervous about driving to adelaide, driving anywhere around trucks and shit scares me, and with the added excitement of rogue kangaroos running across the road it should be fun. But in saying that we are leaving early thursday so we can take it slow and get down safe. Moshing everynight to 50 lions wow, so siked.

some days, i just want to close my eyes and wake up somewhere else, i am the result of stress and heartache, but i think im doing pretty well to hold myself together, im lonely even though im surrounded by friends and people that care, i find myself feeling like shit most of the time. Life is hard i get that, but sometimes it unfair, why where we chosen to be put into certain situations, why do i have to deal with so much shit ? ahhh.

Tropic Thunder is great, holy fuck its great, i want to watch this movie again, jack black is so good in this movie his character is a drug addicted actor who's career is going downhill, i wont spoil too much but go and see this movie,  i also saw strangers last night and it scared the shit out of me, good weekend of movies.